In the cloisters was the coffee shop I mentioned above, and the delicious pastry fragrance wafting from it wasn't helping the fact that I was starving. I refused, however, to give any more of my money to this evil institution (haha), so we finished up in the abbey and since I LOVE them and Kirbie hadn't tried one yet, went in search of pasties. Usually it's not that difficult: there's a Cornish Pasty Co every five seconds in this country but, like Starbucks, you can never actually find one when you want one.
After a minor travel mishap which involved me running all over London looking for an internet cafe, we were reunited with Kirbie for a speedy Maccas dinner and the pub crawl. I was neg-vibing on it a bit at first, due to exhaustion, but it turned out great. There was one crazy Western Australian guy who must've been on drugs, and a Swedish girl who challenged us and a Canadian guy list ten famous people from our countries, only to list brands when we turned the tables on her.
That's one major lesson I've learned from my exchange experience so far. It's been a fair while since I've made new friends - everyone I'm close to at home has known me at least since the startof uni. So having this intense experience of becoming close to people in a period of six months has been a kind of checkup on what I'm like as a person right now. Everyone else I know has preconceived notions of me, but the people I've met overseas have nothing to go on but what they've discovered for themselves in the last few months. In a way, their opinion of me will be the most unbiased account of who I am, perhaps not wholly, but currently. And it's interesting because two of the people I've grown closest to over here, Sam and Kim, have both said I'm a very cynical person - which is something I don't know many of my friends at home would call me.
I've thought about this a lot, and learned from it. I think the best way to be, in this respect, is to have the acuity to be able to perceive things as they are with all their faults; the disposition to not be bothered by those faults; and the social awareness not to come across to people as a critical asshole who can't be pleased by anything. I think I had the first two to begin with, but I was never aware of the need for the third until now.
I love language, and think it's our best medium for communication, but even so, it's so inadequate. There is no way to economically modulate it enough to accurately convey the middleground, the liminal, the grey , the inbetween of human experience, and you can see this in the way we think. It's difficult to list the faults of something without it seeming like you didn't enjoy it because language forces us to make assertions in relative polaritie, with only clumsy adjectives and things as modifiers. That's why you get all these people saying in their Facebook 'About Me's that they're 'a walking bundle of contradictions' and 'so random', because when called upon to give an account of themselves in words, they find it difficult to reconcile any words which contradict one another, they are 'unable to hold in their minds ... two contradictory ideas' (Earl Lovelace's The Dragon Can't Dance - you can tell I've just been studying for a Postcolonialism exam, can't you?). They go to write that they're quiet, but then they remember that, when they're with a certain group of friends they're really boisterous. But what? Quiet AND boisterous? No! God, I'm just sooooo random!
Sadly that night Kirbie left. It'd been so good having her there; we probably wouldn't have done half the things we'd done if she hadn't been there to energise and motivate us - we were leaving the hostel at nine in the morning and not coming back till eleven, twelve, or one every night. She really made our visit.
Our last day in London turned out to be a return to all our favourite places without us meaning it to. We started out at the National Gallery, this time in the Portrait Gallery, where we saw some very cool familiar faces:
And guess who else we saw? That's right, Mandalf!: